A late night Blog!

December.Already?!!!?!!Gosh, time is just flying by. Layla is growing everyday, is already 6 months old!Im up late tonight,its 130am... I was finishing up an assignment, as Im much behind on my course, and really have to crack down on it.

So I did not get that job I had the interview for.But that's okay.I was happy enough that they took interest on interviewing me.So I must be somewhat interesting,no? ;)

Shall see what comes my way, I dont feel very pressured just yet on finding a job.As I do not have to work, but I prefer to give it a go over the winter. Mike is not wanting me to, as hes not so sure he can handle taking care of Layla alone all day =P

Things have been really great between Mike & I recently! =) I love him, I just think I get upset and too lonesome with him away so often, and how hes been getting hom at about 7pm due to awful Toronto traffic!But Im always happy he makes it home safely.I worry everyday actually, that he will get to work and come home, safe and sound.. Life is a fragile thing. And I have realized that more and more recently, as I know of too many young friends of mine or even just aquantances, that have passed away recently. Makes me really sad, and cry just hearing the stories!... I worry even more when I know of someone who had epilepsy,seizured during work,and just passed away from the seizure.He was only 23,and had a baby on the way. =( So I just get paranoid something will happen soon to Mike or me. I know you cant live everyday in fear of dying.As thats no way to live!But death crosses my mind the odd time when I look back onto people who have passed away... just makes me all nervous...

I just would be very mad if I passed away in a car accident or something like that. It is one of my biggest fears actually!More so, because I had a friend who died in a car accident plus I have been in two myself.

Mike is a darling, he brought me home my favourite chocolates today when he came home from work!I love it when he does things like that. =) He can be charming when he wants to. I just think he is a bit miserable most of his days since he really dont like his job.. I wish for him to be able to do something he would enjoy someday.. Its just hard right now to have that option when supporting a family. Im glad he does what he does, as I know I couldnt do the type of job and hours he has to do. We both really look forward to the winter, every year actually, because he gets to be home!It is the off season for his job. This makes me love winter the most out of all the seasons!I always miss him when hes away at work... and Im sure Layla does too.. Sometimes Ive given Mike a hard time with random things, and I feel bad about it now. But hey, when you went through a pregnancy and just had a baby,the hormones are all over the place,so moodyness and irritability sets in here and there!heehee!But Ive been trying my best to control my temper!Gosh am I ever short tempered,but Im also easy to bring out of it! =D

This weekend we will be going to Niagara Falls, and visiting the inlaws at the farm. Hopefully they will watch Layla for a while so Mike and I can have some alone time together at the Falls.We rarely get to go on dates, so I really look forward to it. I love Layla though, but I also love Mike and want to keep our marriage strong forever. Hes been that one person who was there for me through thick and thin. When I look at it, kinda wonder how he put up with me sometimes =P But, I guess he can be a bit of a pain the odd time too! ;) haha.

Aw,I just looked around me,and my dogs and cats are sleeping nearby on their beds. =) I love them so much!I think its soo cute how they follow me around,if I go to one spot to relax they follow.

I have not been out riding much these days, but I know I will more often come late winter time. At least I hope so!With Mike being home, kinda get to go out more. I want to do more stuff this winter with Mike and our friends. Such as skating,toboganning on the big heal near our place,skiing,trail rides,random walks to Timmies for hotchocolates,walks through Victoria or Waterloo park to see the Christmas Lights!I find I enjoy winter activities the most!I like being all bundled up,and love to lay in thick pile of white snow at night,looking up to a clear starlit sky!

Mike and I have been asked from quite a few friends and family now, if we will be having another baby!! =O HAH! Okay, well ... secretly... I do want another baby.. But I aint letting Mike know that yet.(he wont know,as he never reads my blogs... ) I want to get my school done first, and try to work for a while,and I REALLY want a honeymoon!

But I do not want to get pregnant middle of winter,as Id die being in a late pregnancy in the hot summer time!I think it will happen when it happens... no plans for it. =P Im kinda done with planning out life.It never will go as planned,and then become all disapointed when dont go my way!So Id rather just be surprised,take life as it comes.Long as I live happily.

Well its quite late now.. I want to go cuddle up to Mike in bed. And dream away. =)

Goodnight!

Job Interview Tomorrow!

So I was looking over job ads on Kijiji today... as I am looking for a job come winter time... so late next month. As Mike will be on the off season, and I do look forward on working again. I would like to get a job in something different yet fun!It can be tough finding a decent job that isnt in retail,constrution or a factory of some sort.That is where education plays a huge role.But I have a good variety and experiences for jobs. I do have confidence, not once I have been turned down from a job I applied for. heehee
So I responded to an ad, for a Receptionist in a Custom Car Showroom!It's called Rockstar Motors Inc.
Seems they took interest in me,as they responded to my email not long after I sent it, and have an interview tomorrow morning.Hope it goes well, and I said Im looking to work starting winter time..So later in December. As Layla is still too young yet to be without me.

Kittens...ugh!

So my cat accidently got outside this past summer,and I always kept her as an indoor cat... I was debating on getting her fixed, but then she ended up pregnant, as she got outside when she was in heat and didnt come back home within a week!soo,she had 4 kittens!My sis took one of them.But the two males drive me insane.When theyre together,they get too rambuncious and excited,and they have been ruining my furniture!Climbing up my curtains,leather couch and chairs...they really irritate me to no end to be honest...I dont like kittens,but Im fine with most cats.As kittens are too playful to my liking I guess.I hope to find a home for the two males, but havent been having much luck on it..No way am I keeping them though.I find one or two cats is more than enough.Im more of a dog person than a cat person too...I dont think it would be so bad if they were seperated. I just dont like when my place is getting ruined from stupid claws of theirs.grrr!!
Mike and I went to St.Louis this evening to talk about things, and my sister babysat Layla for us. =) I guess I should get some sleep, as I went to bed pretty late last night too..

Cus I felt like blogging...

I couldnt sleep... especially when I have so much to think about, and I tend to look back on my memories all too often, where everything seems too fresh in my mind, regardless if it was something that happened 10 years ago! It's not that Im mad about it, I guess it is things that I wish I could have done differently, or maybe some things that I do not understand really today why they happened...

Another thing on my mind...
Sometimes it'd be nice if Mike and I could go out on a date.Just the two of us... to talk, and just I dont know,catch up on eachothers lives really.. as everyday goes by so fast, and we are both usually really busy, and Layla gets most of my attention all the time, so hard for me to pay much attention to Mike...
Regardless, the things that I get a bit down and upset about, most of them are just out of my control. I try and stay positive as best I can. We try and make every bill payment, and Mike supports me and Layla as much as he can, and tries to keep us happy and get us things that we need. Yes, it would probably be somewhat easier if I worked too, but I really do not trust someone else watching Layla... and either way, probably most of my pay would just go towards daycare.
I just wish Mike would think a bit more on wanting to put together something for just the two of us, where Layla could be babysat for a couple hours. Not that I dont want Layla around, but I just feel that we still need to keep our relationship strong and not lose that. Have to still put efford on a relationship, regardless if married or not. I think most marriages endup as a disaster, because some just get lazy, and there is no more spark, no more trying to impress the other. I just dont want that to be us! Our marriage so far has been wonderful, I admit, there have been down times, but that I believe is normal and healthy.But I also hope that there will be more to our lives than where we are at today.. I do not want to just be sitting in our apartment all day long, just me and Layla all the time. I need excitment, which may explain my frequent nights out on the weekends with sister and girl friends. But that's the thing, I also would love it to go out with Mike too. We are young still though, and I hope our education and careers will only improve, so we can make something of ourselves some day.

So I went to this cancer charity party thing last night... and made me think how I would want my friends/family to throw a huge awesome party when I'm gone! I'd hope theyd share plenty of my pictures of my most memorable moments in my life with the ones I love and care about.

Damn it, so my cat had 4 kittens, my sis took one of them home recently.. but there are still 3 left.. not having much luck on finding them homes.. and theyre driving me insane.. because they all love to play with eachother and they climb on everything.. and just make noise at night. Ive never been too much of a cat person... I much prefer dogs!!

Alrighty... well, I guess I shall get to bed...

Another weekend.

This weekends goin by pretty quick,and Im so behind on my course! =/ Just been pretty busy with other life things!
Today went to the barn,met up with a couple who are interested on riding my horses, and it went really well! I think it'll go really well with them, and they were really great with the horses. As it is important with me that my horses like the people also. =) Im pretty excited about it!
The other boarders at the barn were having fun with Layla as I was teaching my new part boarders =) Layla loves other people, probably because she gets bored seeing my face EVERYDAY!haha! =P
Our car is finally all fixed up too!The company who fixed it did a great job!Plus,they cleaned the inside of the car,and the outside!WHOOHOO!Probably the cleanest I have ever seen the car!haha!I love it!Mike has been letting me practice here and there driving it, but standard aint that easy, but I hope I will get better at it.. I dont usually like things that dont come easily for me to do.. so if I stick with this, then I will be pretty proud if I am good at it eventually!

... I should try get another assignment done.. as now Im going to be 3 weeks behind =/ ughh.. just tough keeping up with it all, as Layla keeps me busy around the clock!

Night out is what it's all about!

A night out in the town is one of my favourite things to do!!I love going dancing at night clubs!Meeting new fun people! =) I always make a few more friends when I go out! Always have a great time! Last night was first time me and my older sister drank together!HAA,was really fun,and hilarious! I sobered up by the end of the night though! We went to this club,DALLAS.Me and my sis rode the mechanical bull!So fun!And I was the life of the dance floor! ;) as usual teehee!

Today,just another ordinary day...

It's a Thursday,which means tomorrow is Friday...in other words,I have 5 assignments due tomorrow night!!The week has gone by way too fast!!Started my day by going to BlockBuster and returned a movie,then rented another.I have rented over a handful of movies in less than a month now, because I have this deal there for $10 get to rent as much of the ''favourites'' movies as Id like for 30days.Im home all day,and there is never anything good to watch on TV,so movies are nice. The blockbuster is like just down the street from me too, so I walk there in the mornings with the dogs and Layla... When I got home,I made Layla her porage, and she enjoyed that! Then I let her sit in her high chair and she watched me do the dishes..and then made myself scrambled eggs,a toasted english muffin with butter&jam,and a clementine.Was delicious!
This evening Im going to the barn to muck stalls and see my horses. =) Will be one of the highlights of my day!
Sigh... I should really try and do more assignments...