So I went for my dream... got all I could have ever wanted... and here I am, debating if I should stay in this dream... Am I selfish, greedy, and down right spoiled? Maybe, but I don't think I am exactly... I mean, when someone decides to change their careers, that doesn't make them a bad person, right?But yeah, we have tried, and maybe could try harder... I'm sick of having this constantly on my mind!! I just hate decision making sometimes, especially the really big ones that will make a big difference. I enjoy living on a farm very much, but there are too many things that ruin it... Okay, so I'm going to let this subject hibernate for a little bit... TRY that is!!
... I'm now 19 weeks pregnant!My belly sure has grown!I've gained at least 10lbs!Yet it's only showing on the tummy... The start of the pregnancy was brutal!!I had such awful morning sickness, that I was on a medication to ease it. Then as my belly started to get bigger, I got maga headaches and neck pain, but that eased away once I put a pillow to support my stomach,and a pillow between my legs when I went to sleep..Pregnancy sure is an interesting thing,and makes me nervous!I'm mostly nervous for the whole labour part... and then raising it. I hope I'll make a good mommy... I believe Mike will make a wonderful father :) ...We will be going for an ultra sound in a few days!I love ultra sounds!The baby looks so cute on the screen, and last time it made me laugh by dancing and wiggling around like crazy!Even its heart beat made my heart melt...I really wonder if it's a girl or a boy!We will leave it as a surprise though. If it's a girl, she'd be named as Layla, and if it's a boy, he'd be named as Micheal/Mike.
Well, today was one of those 'down time' days for me... I got to relax and be a lazy pregnant lady.. I'm enjoying it a lot, but deffinitely cant get used to it, as Mike will be back working for a couple more weeks :( So I shall be in maga hibernation and saddness... just take care of the horses,and then sleep the day away or daze it away, either way just wait for my Mikey to come home so I can kiss and hug him and just soak up his company!I hate when we are apart... yup, we've been together for almost 3 years(not tooo long of a time i know)but still a good sign that I cant get enough of him! ;)
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