This morning wasnt a good one at all.Our foal,Gracie,wasn't doing too well this week.She couldnt stand up,and was laying down for a couple days.It was normal to see her laying down,as ever since we bought her,she layed down a lot,but would still get up and run around no problem.But this time,that wasn't the case...it came on so suddenly,and I have no idea how it would have happened for her back legs not working.She wasn't out with other horses,and was put in the indoor arena while I mucked stalls.When I would lead her back to her stall,she was walking no problem.She never had a fever,was eating,drinking and going to the bathroom normally...so I gave her a couple days to see...but she still wasn't able to get up.So we got a vet out,and pretty much knowing what the outcome would be...Once I gave permission to put her down,the vet left to his truck to get the things he needed,and let me say my goodbyes..I held Gracie in my arms,and was petting her cute little face,and thought it was so cute how she has a heart marking on her forehead..it broke my heart when I seen her try to get up,but she couldn't..Seemed like she knew,and she wanted to fight it,and she gave it one more try,but just couldnt..The vet came back,and I signed the papers...I didn't want to watch,but at the same time felt that I should be by her side...but I just couldn't bare it...my boarder kindly helped the vet with it...
I feel awful for poor little Gracie..She was such a cutie...
Now,we have to figure out what to do with her..body..it costs way too much for someone to pick her up and take her away.So...we may put her in our far back field,where no one goes,and well..burn her..either way that wouldve been done to where she was sent to...we will do that quietly,when no one is around here..I know I'll bawl when we do it and I see that..Going to be awful..but it must be done =( Gosh,things just keep getting worse here it seems!
I feel so exhausted,and overwhelmed from this all...What sucked more is that Mike had to be at work,so I had to deal with this on my own...I just feel awful having to make the decision on ending a life...
Life just sucks sometimes....
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