Just a little note on what's up!

Yesterday was so hot outside!So me and my sisters went swimming!Sure was refreshing!The pool was warm too.I decided to let Layla try going in the pool!!It was so exciting having her do something for the very first time :) She did great.I didnt dunk her head under the water,as shes still a bit young for that.

Mikes been working hard at work lately, laying bricks and whatnot.Which sucks a lot,as it's one of the hottest weeks of the summer!And we have a busy night to pack the rest of our things,as we are moving tomorrow!!AHH!!..

Im very excited to move!Although,we will partially miss this house... lots of memories. And Mike grew up here!! But it's nice to start out fresh, have our very own place. Decorate it the way we'd like,paint the walls colours we like.Make it OUR home. :) I actually will enjoy not having stairs!Everything on the same floor!Yup,I am lazy,mostly in the summer time,as I cant handle hot weather very well!

I should probably get back to packing now... have to try and get as much as I can done during the day.

Just a day out and about...

I took the bus to the mall today,and printed out some pictures, as I was going to do some scrapbooking.Something I had never done before! As I was at the check out,I seen my mom walk by,really fast,and down an aisle,and then my sister said hi to me quickly and said that my mom dont want to keep stuff from dad,so shes not talking to me at all.Well,that hurt and I found to be quite rediculous!The least she could do is wave at her daughter... Never thought my own mother could just turn her back on me,and not even care she has a grand daughter.But whatever, that's her choice, I just won't be going up to say hello to her anymore if I ever see her out in public. A good mother,always loves and cares for her children,regardless of a minor mistake they've made!!I think it just bothers me more,because I had a good relationship with my mom... my sisters never had too strong of one with her,so it don't upset them as much as it does to me. So,after I left the mall,I cried a bit on my walk to my friend's house... she comforted me..and then,I looked at Layla,and she was smiling a lot,so that just cheered me up instantly.
Then we started to scrapbook!So I have just become a fan of scrapbooking!It's fun!So far I'm making one of Layla,and then of our wedding. I also put some pictures into frames!FINALLY!I had been wanting to do that for so long already.haha.
Not much else happened today other than that...

Love Life.

My heart melts on how I see Layla growing so fast.She will already be 3 months old next week.I soak up every moment I have with her being this small!I remember when she just came out of me and was in my arms.I remember every moment when she had come into this world.From the first ultra sound,the first heart beat and kick,and the labour.I won't ever forget the details of the day she was born.Was the day that had changed my life forever, but in a great way. Layla has been a blessing. Amazing on how I've known her for such a small amount of time,and just love her unconditionally!I almost cry when I see her sound asleep in her bed, as she smiles in her dreams,and looks so peaceful and warm. I think of how amazing it is,how Mike and I have created such a beautiful miracle.
It's funny,how the smallest and simplest things can amaze us,on things she does.But it is all new to her!She started to attempt lifting her head about 5 or 6 weeks old!And her eye sight had improved after 1 month. She now recognizes us,and our voices and will turn her head to watch where we are. She loves looking at things,exploring,and probably drives her crazy how she just dont know how to get anywhere on her own.The best part,is seeing her smile,and make coo sounds!Her favourite toy is her colourful purple elephant!And she cannot stand any little amount of a dirty diaper,which I think could be a good thing as she may be easier to potty train!I haven't had too many difficult times with her YET!She's had a few fussy days,where she was awfully crampy, but we found that a nice warm bath really soothes her when shes not feeling the greatest.
She also really likes Barley,when his hair tickles her against her cheek!
I try and take a lot of pictures and videos,as I know I love looking back on pictures and videos when from my younger days.She also really loves going for walks,well,being pushed in a stroller anyway!I noticed she likes to be outside,and car rides make her fall asleep almost instantly!
Mike ''jokes'' about having another baby to me.I just know we aren't ready anytime soon on another baby,and if something like that happened,it definitly wouldnt have been planned like Layla was!
Yes,we planned to have Layla.At that point of our lives,we felt we were ready,that we were set.We had a mortgage,a home,that we thought would last forever,I had my career going,and he was working full time.Things were going quite well at that point. But unfortunately,things changed,on a variety of circumstances we knew we had to give up the farm.I was upset at the time,as I felt maybe having a baby wasn't such a good idea anymore.That we were now starting all over again,and would be hard to support a baby when I couldn't work for a while.But,things have been going better than I thought,and I do not regret having Layla.Not one piece of me.I feel she's probably one of the best thing's that could have happened to Mike and I. Layla is what keeps me going in life, she makes me happy and just makes me stronger everyday. I fight through any bumps along the road of life!

All I have to say is that I love being a housewife, and a mother. I love my life,even through the toughest times,Im lucky to have the ones I do in my life.

... bored..

Not much going on right now.We didnt do a whole lot this weekend.. .so I guess this could be a bit of a dull blog,but maybe that's because I'm having a dull evening,had nothing else to do.
Spent a lot of my time at the mall, just browsing around.Then we went to the apartment we will be moving into next month.Just wanted to get measurements of the unit and other information.
We will need quite a handful of things when we move to our new place.Floor lamps,shower curtain,toilet scrub,blinds,dinning table,coffee table,vaccum and some decorative would be nice,such as plants. Apartment life will be different from what I'm used to.. As Ive always had a big backyard,lived in a house.But I really dont think this will bother me.Plus,this apartment has a big court yard. It's a decent area in Kitchener, and I dont think itd get much better.It has everything we are looking for!!

AWE. Cant believe how much my baby Layla is growing. She is just so adorable, and we notice changes and her development every week!She now smiles a lot,and coo's,and seems to be able to see further. She now likes the soother!At first she didnt like it,she would gag from it.

On another note, I hope mike and i will be able to go on a honey moon next winter!Once Layla is a year old. Im not sure where we can go, or where we would want to go. We both were thinking of taking a road trip to California!Hollywood would be awesome!Im more affraid of planes,and a road trip would be cool.My motion sickness has been getting better lately.
Id like to visit Hollywood,Las Vegas,and New York at some point of my life. Yup, all the big busy citys!!I dont trust tropical island places, due to food and liquids I just couldnt trust.

Well,I dont have much else to say!! .... =P

some jibber,jabber...

Im feeling much better today about things! Mike sorted out a lot of the issues we had this past week,with Rogers and the apartment! So we don't have to pay such a insane amount of money to Rogers,they did make a mistake on the cancellation fee.Also looking that we will get the apartment we just love!! Its hard to find a place! Way too many crap places for rent,some it's shocking they can even ask money for it!
I have gotten into a good routine recently,trying to prepare myself for apartment life!I walk the dogs every morning,noon and evening,and just quick one before bed time.And even clean up after them.I dont mind it at all. It's actually nice going for walks,with the dogs and Layla.Gets me out of the house!Clear my mind. :) Nikki and Barley love it too,and they are very well behaved,they dont walk me!Which is great,because I have to push Layla in the stroller.
I cant believe summer is half way gone!! :( The days go by so fast.. almost feels as if the older I get,the faster time goes...
I have been really busy since yesterday!Just been cleaning the house like crazy.And laundry is a nonstop chore! =P But I dont mind doing laundry,find it actually a bit fun,folding and listening to music,chatting on msn..blogging? :P
Im looking forward for tonight,going on a double date with our good friends Kirstie and Tyler!Meeting up for dinner at Moose Win..um,dont know how to spell it! =P haha. And my friend Sarah is going to babysit Layla!! :) SO nice of her.. it's nice to just get out with friends and Mike.I love Layla,but an hour break once in a while is good to have!I love to get prettied up and go out!
This will be great though,since we are all really close friends,so I find it really neat how K&T are dating,because now we can go on double dates and stuff! :)
Woah,I just realized,that I will be starting school in a few weeks!! I still have to get more details though, but I plan to start 3 online courses. As Id like to get my diploma,and I only need 3 elective credits.So it shouldnt be too hard. And I may as well do it now,since the online courses are free before Im 21yrs old. Im a little nervous,as I havent done any schooling in a couple years now!And hopefully will manage doing well,as I'd have to take care of Layla still.But online courses are awesome,as I can do it on my own time,just have deadlines for assignments.
Im not sure what else I want to do this summer.. I would love to go to African Lion Safari!!Havent been there in like,over 10years!Last I remember going,it was with my family,and a monkey crapped on the windshield of the car,and when we got home,my dad was trying to clean it up.But at that time,we had just an old green crap car. =P So wasnt that big of a deal!The monkey gave its opinion on our car. :P
Well,this was just a random blog,yapping away of stuff that's on my mind I guess!

ROGERS WIRELESS IS EVIL

These phone companies are all a scam!They are such money grabbers,and will try to suck every penny out of anyone who signs a contract with them. They do not give respect or any care in the world to their customers. They make so much money and know they are a big and popular business that they dont care if they lose a couple of customers. They have proven to me that they do not value their VIP members. We pay a lot of money to Rogers a month. We have internet, cable, cell phones with them. About half a year ago now, we had cancelled our internet rocket stick we had with them, as we found out they had changed our contract from a 2 year to a 3 year term! They would not do anything for us about this,even though we had the original signed contract that stated it was a 2 year. We had even faxed it to them! So,we just get this huge bill,of almost $700!And so confused what it was for.So,Mike called Rogers,and turned out,it was a cancellation fee from the rocket stick!This we find is so wrong,as they had broke the contract,and they just found out what happened and they made an error,but thats not our fault,and it is too late now to tell us it's an error.As they had broken the contract,they made an illegal change to it,which had given us the right to cancel,and should not have been expected to be charged for it!So all Mike got out of arguing with them,is that they lowered it by $200.

This just couldnt have happened at a worse time.. when we are looking to move by September 1st... We can't afford paying a charge that is completely insane.

I wish I could get this out in the public, and put a bad name on ROGERS. People these days cannot afford to pay such amounts! They clearly do not care how this effects families.

I really do not feel comfortable being a Rogers customer,and cannot wait for my contracts with them to be done. I would never go back to this company.

Not sure what we can do about this.. we would like to take it to court. If I had the money,I would totally take them to court,no matter how much it costs,just to prove them wrong and make them look like fools.

Have you had bad experience with Rogers,Bell or Telus? We seemed to have bad luck with ROGERS AND TELUS!

F*** YOU ROGERS.

We All Have A Story..So what's yours!?

Have you ever looked back on memories, good or bad ones, in your life? Just think of all those dramatic events, and how one thing led to another. How fast things may have come and gone, how fast the world just goes 'round and time never slows down. I am one of those people, who reflect often on their memories, their past. Though, I try not to dwell on issues from the past. As that wouldn't get me any further in the future. But sometimes I cant help but be angry on events that have happened in my life. You can't change the past, we all know that. But can only try to improve and make a difference for the future. I try to live just day by day, go with the flow as I tell my friends! I find that for someone my age, has done so much, been through too much, in such a small amount of time. Which makes me wonder, how much more will happen!?

Im now 20 years old, married, and have a 2 month old daughter. With no parents apart of my life, their choice, not mine. Family is important,and I am excited to have started my own. But I look at my friends.. they're single, living at parents still, doing school, career driven, and not many have to be so concerned about their finances and bills. Responsibilities make you feel old. I have had many big responsibilities at a young age, which never really gave me a typical teenage lifestyle. I can't complain though, as I may have the life now which my friends are looking forward to having someday too. I'm just a road ahead of them.

I dont know how I get through the tough times, but now my daughter makes me even stronger when times can be rough. I am a mother now, I can do it all, right!? ;)

If I began to tell you my life story, then I may as well make a novel. Which is something I may want to do someday, and maybe I will!

We all have a story, every life story is different, and interesting, every issue is big that you cannot compare to eachothers.

I live to be happy, and I am happy to live. No matter what tries to block my path, I will smash through it, and move on!

If we all wrote a story of our lives, maybe we'd all be celebrities!! =P

MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

My 20th Birthday was amazing!! Mike really pulled it off on making my birthday this year one of the best I had ever had! I never used to look forward to my birthday before, as I found it the one day out of the year that was full of bad luck! Normally,every year something would go wrong on my birthday, either a pet would die, I would get in trouble from my parents, or I'd endup sick or just something would go wrong everywhere I turned. Well, that changed this year!
We celebrated the whole weekend,as it was a long weekend,and it's cool as my birthday is always on a long weekend!

On Saturday,July 31st, was the day Mike had proposed to me in Czech 3 years ago already!It rained after he had proposed to me,yet it was a beautiful hot day... and I found it interesting how this year, the same day, it was hot and it also rained! Anyway, Mike took me for a picnic at the park. He originally wanted to ride the horses out to have a picnic,but Cinny's been having lameness issues recently,so we decided to skip the riding. My sister Tanya babysat Layla for a few hours,so we could go have some fun on our own. When we arrived at the park, and started walking to find a nice place to picnic,I noticed this awful smell,at first,I asked Mike if he smelt it and that maybe it was some really weird plant... then we both looked at eachother,realizing,no,that smelt like shit!!!... So I happened to glance down,looked behind me,and there were brown blotches on the ground!..YUP! I just had to step in dog shit!! EW! Was so nasty!! So we spent some time trying to get this crap off my shoe!! haha! And I was like,Ohh great,here we go!!Bad luck is already starting!! But we found a nice place for our picnic,and Mike had a nice lunch prepared.. I LOVED THIS!! Seriously, I have been wanting to have a picnic for so long,and finally we did. I really enjoyed it, was probably one of the highlights of my bday weekend. :) So,we finished our picnic,packed it up,and it started to rain! The rain didnt last long,so Mike still took me out to mini golf. Im not really much for golfing stuff, but I still had a great time.

Sunday,August 1st.
MY birthday. Officially 20. Feel any different? With no more teen? Those qustions were asked by many. My answer, no, it dont feel different, as I dont remember the last I had felt like a teenager, Ive felt older than 20 for a long time now. Looking at my life and all my experiences and responsibilities, it's understandable to why I feel that way!
So, first thing in the morning of my birthday, I get a kiss and hug from Mike. Then I take care of the pets. I then decided to give Layla a bath, as I knew we had a long day ahead of us,and wanted her to sleep well when Mike's mother babysat her for a few hours..
We headed for Toronto... I was crossing my fingers that nothing would bad happen,like a car accident or whatever. Turned out, the roads were quite dead and the drive went really well!I didnt get car sick either and didnt take any motion sickness pills! So we spent some time at Mikes parents condo in Toronto, and I told his mom what to do with Layla and I had prepared Layla before I left.. so a diaper change and a feed. Mike and I were off to Medival Times!! Was really fun there! We had our picture taken, and we look rediculous in it! Then we watched a live show while enjoying a nice big medival dinner!No cuttlery!Have to eat with your hands!The horses were beautiful, so well trained too.Then,'our knight', gave me a ribbon during the show, that says Queen of Love and Beauty! When the show ended, Mike got me a really nice necklace! I love it! Only necklace I have now!HAA!
We then headed back to the condo. Layla did really well without us during the time we were away, she was all happy. So that made me relieved that she wasnt all fussy.
It turned out to be a great day, although, one thing that sucked, I didn't get a birthday cake! :(

Monday,August 2nd.
We got up early, and met up with my friends and my sister, Tanya, at Tim Hortons. Off to the beach we went! Grand Ben. I definitly prefer Sauble Beach though. The drive went well,and Layla was good the whole way there. As Mike and I figured, it was over crowded... long weekend, duh... But we still had a good time, I enjoyed swimming. Then we got back to KW in the evening, and I quickly changed into my riding gear and headed off to the barn!!! Every year on the civic holiday,HBA barn staff/volunteers go for a big fun and fast trail ride!!I had been looking forward to it!But they headed out before me,as I couldnt make it there right on time.So I fed Layla right before I went to ride. I rode Laudie, and had to go find the group on the trails!I just booted it around out there!Then,these two horses,without riders!,came running up towards me!I woahed them and grabbed the reins on the one horse,and continued to ride trying to find the group,and hoped no one was hurt! Then we found eachother, and they were all happy and the riders were okay! Then we rode out to this big field,and were about to have a big race!!My heart starts to race,and I become excited and anxious!We counted to 3 and off we went!!I went sooo fast on Laudie,I then pushed her on at half way point.In no time we were ahead of everyone!WE WON! =D I rarely lose a race ;) I won both races this day!I even let them have a head start!!!haha!I never went full out on Laudie like that!So it was pretty damn awesome!Another one of my highlights of the weekend!
But later that night, I got really sick to my stomach, and heard that our other friend did too.. and we were the only ones who got water in our system, no one else did, so they didnt get sick. But we were both fine the next day.. and I was so glad Layla slept 7hours that night!! So it wasnt a great way to end my long weekend, but everything else went so great and was a lot of fun!!!


Tuesday,August 3rd
My sisters came over to see me, and gave me a birthday gift!! And I love it! They got me a really big horse canvas painting, and a picture frame!So I can decorate my new place!

Wedesday,August 4th
Found out my horse Cinnamon is very lame, she just has bad bruising on her soles from the stones. So giving her some time off and will need to get her shoed soon...
Then Katie came over and we went out to lunch with Tanya,where our friend Sarah works!So Sarah served us ;) Then later on me and Katie just hung out at my place, so that was nice, we hadnt hung out just the two of us in quite a while!

Well Layla needs me!!