Today :)

I cut my hair today!My bangs anyway, as I am keeping my nice long hair =) It turned out really good!I used to always have straight cut bangs,but wanted to follow everyone elses style with the side bangs back in the day =P It's always refreshing and nice to change up hair style. Sometimes just makes me feel refreshed! I never go to hair dresser... Im too cheap!! LOL. But I find hair dressers never do it the way I'd like it anyways.I've been doing it myself the past like 5 years now,and I havent messed it up badly, luckily. Although, its just hair,will grow back!

Went to the barn this evening again. =) Layla was content,so I was able to groom Cinnamon and Laudie. Also mucked their stalls. We werent out as long today though, because I didnt bother going in the paddock trying to catch Laudie.. Just waited until the gait was opened for them to go into the barn. So I haltered her when she got into the barn and walked her in her stall. Mike dont really like going out to the barn so often, but he does it for me at least. Otherwise, we wouldnt do anything at all... The barn is nice, get to be outside in the freshair, and it's good for Layla as well =) Although, Layla seems to like the mall more than the barn, but thats probably because there is more bright lights and things to look at, colourful things. haha.

I really have to crack down on my assignments/summative... not many days left to get it all done.. sigh.. I never liked school.. but Im so close, I have to get this finished, otherwise I would have wasted so much time!

My night.

Went to the barn again this evening. Its been really nice being able to go there every evening. I just mucked stalls, and groomed the horses, included my friends horse, while Mike walked Layla around the barn. Laudie has been trouble to catch recently, some days are good and some days are bad, but seems to be more bad than good!I dont know why or what has gotten into her.. as she has never been this way before. But I hope I can regain her trust and she will allow me to just walk up to her while shes in the field.
I watched The Social Network movie tonight with Mike... It was good! Amazes me how lucky the guy is who created facebook!Facebook is way too addictive though!
I was supposed to have finished an assignment today, but instead, I took a break. As I had spent so much time on other assignments and didnt get marks that I had aimed for, whcih pisses me off,because teachers always seem to find a way to deduct marks. Guess I will have a long day tomorrow...
Well, I guess I should get some rest now...

It's up & it's down. =)

Things are going well again, life is just up and down, and it'll probably be that way for a long time ahead, just have to deal with it and keep pushing on! :)

I've been really enjoying being able to go to the barn and see my horses everyday!I have to put Laudie in her stall myself, because she bolts into it,and hurts herself. So it's just best that I put her in myself, as she hasnt gotten hurt yet when I do it. I've also been tryng to get further on my assignments, at least trying to get one or two done each day, but it's tricky trying to balance school when I have to take care of Layla. Im finding that the newborn stage was the easiest =P Excluding the part where they wake up every couple hours through the night. Layla is full of energy now!She just wants to explore everything!haha!It's pretty amazing though, how much changes in only a few months. I've been hearing her say daa daa a lot! But I dont think she really knows what it means or how to use it, right now its just baby gabbing really. Although, it's quite obvious that it'd be her first word, as she's already saying it, just needs to learn how to use it. haha.

I'm not sure where I will get a job yet, but I need to apply just somewhere right close by. Hopefully will get lucky.

Yesterday at the barn, my good friend Kirstie came out too. So we played around on Cinnamon, let her practice her balancing while on the lunge line. Was pretty fun! I rode a bit too, and she got some pictures! I hadnt had action shots while riding Cinny in a long time. I always enjoy winter riding. With the snow and when the sun is its brightest, those are the best days!I may try to show this year, as I've never gone to a show nor been in one!Which is quite sad, the fact I've been riding for a long time now.

Darn it, I have a cough again... Hopefully wont last long or pass onto Layla..

Marriage

Does it ever take a lot to make a marriage work. My dreams to have a happy family,a house,and just be comfortable with life.
I think men are too blank minded, while women pay attention to too much detail. It will take time to get off of the bumpy stone road.. I am willing to try, but Mikes definitly taking some face plants! I want to make it a success, but sometimes just come to my wits end and need a breather.I think we need more time doing activities together.But yeah, we will work through it,and I hope for the best.

Today.

Well, as always, Im forgiving, but I never forget. I dont like to hold a grudge or be upset about something for that long...So even though Mike messed up, I

Todays Mikes 24th birthday, didnt do anything too big, as it's hard to be able to go out when we got Layla, and cant spend much. We went out for a late lunch with Mikes family, and had a cake.

I should probably start applying for a job soon, hopefully I'll get lucky,and get one right closeby.

A lonesome NewYears Eve..

Yup, he would leave me alone for New Years.... =S
...I said it's fine,that he can go out. But he spoiled the mood for spending time together, as he was contemplating on going out with friends and his brother to drink and celebrate New Years... Secretly, I was looking forward to this night. I was going to make a nice homecooked meal for us, candles,and champaign,movies... cuddling up on the couch and chatting. But he kept asking me if I care if he goes out... Well, I preferred him making that choice on his own, in my opinion, he should not have even asked such a thing.. The way I saw it, he was saying ''So, would you mind if I leave you all alone on NewYears?I want to go party with my brother and friends!?'' He had known well ahead of time what um, ''our'' New Year plans were... So I felt like my idea wasnt satisfying enough for him... so why bother, I dont want to be the nagging wife, saying what he can and cannot do. I hate when he puts it as if Im the one his friends or brother have to ask if he can have a smoke!!PFFFT!That makes me look like as if Im the bitch, I always respond, dont ask me, not my choice..
But anyways....I was smiling when he was putting on his jacket... I was hiding my smile though... Why would I smile?.. It was more of a disbelief sort of smile.. He even could sense I was bit upset he was leaving, he said hes sorry,that he loves me,that he'd call me wish me happy new years...but it was more like, BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH from what I understood =P
And out the door he went... leaving me with a shiver up my spine, and my heart fallin into my stomach.
New Years was never really a huge party event to me though... to me,I grew up where New Years was spent with your family,and some friends maybe. I didnt want to go out for New Years to party,as I have my baby Layla,shes my first priority,and I was content to just spend time with her and Mike at home.It wouldnt have been fun for me dragging her out late at night,and just sitting around trying to stop her from crying,while watching everyone else drinking and having a grand time. And all the other New Years with Mike, I was the host, meaning I had to be responsible for the household,and clean up afterwards,and manage the party,make sure nothing goes wrong.
Maybe this means something, I dont know. I guess it is just another ordinary night really?.... I guess I cant be too surprised, as he didnt do anything for my 19th birthday.
Seriously,not ONE thing, not even breakfast in bed,or a massage or picnic, or horseback riding, .... nothing. He made it up to me for my 20th..only because he knew how upset I had been from my 19th..
Some days... really wish I could go home. Shouldnt have been so stubborn and stupid minded as a teen.. my dad was right, and I had been too thick headed to admit it. Even though he had some faults, I now believe I had most of the faults.

Christmas,come&gone

This was me this morning,reading my book,Marley&Me, with my best pals by my side! =) I love moments like this!

Christmas has already come and gone!!It was a good Christmas this year, even better as my grandparents are home for the winter, as they usually go to Florida every year.

The year 2010 was a good year for the most part!Layla is already 7 months old. The marriage life is very nice too.

I look forward to the new year!!!May new beginnings & adventures happen =)